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10th Stepping

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Who you were later in the morning, that was yourself and was who you need to be always
– You prayed
– You relaxed
– You let the resentment go

Early this morning
-Scared, Anxious, Frustrated
– Selfish
– Angry, resentful, even more anxious

Very bad, living in your sickness instead of the solution.

Remember to serve, to relax and to be yourself, but be selfless.

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August 24, 2012 at 4:21 pm

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Yesterday was a bad day but today

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Today, I will be myself

I will trust god and his plan for me

I will let go of fear, anxiety and stress

Today I will husband, father and son

I will be kind, I ask god to help me be 

of maximum service to everyone 

and I will keep focused on doing the next right thing

Today, I am love, I am laughter, I am living

 

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August 10, 2012 at 5:04 pm

I used to

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Enjoy and think I was good at cooking – now no one at home likes the food I make and all I do is make a huge mess in my suck ass kitchen that I don’t feel like cleaning up.

I used to believe I was good at writing but I seem to have lost that and don’t seem to enjoy it either

I used to believe I was awesome at ky job and now I don’t know anymore

I am not good at housework or fix and repair stuff, nor sports or fitness

I am not sure I am good at anything or that there is anywhere I fit in or am of use to anyone

I thought for a time that I was attractive and good company at least..bit I am not so sure today.

I am tired of being poorly suited to life. These are the thoughts that plague me today

God please let them pass.

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August 9, 2012 at 4:10 pm

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feeling

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sad, lonely, rejected and just plain tired today. I am exhausted, ill, things haven’t been right with me or Kim or with us for a couple of weeks. I am freaked out about cancer, with my mother and an old friend being diagnosed recently. Been a long while since I have felt this low. I will pray that it passes quickly.

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August 9, 2012 at 2:44 pm

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Nuff Said

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When I am with you, we stay up all night.
When you’re not here, I can’t go to sleep.
Praise God for those two insomnias!
And the difference between them.”
― Rumi

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August 6, 2012 at 7:27 pm

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